Day 8- Light in the Darkness

Yesterday during worship, I led a new song for Kingsway titled Way Maker. Preparing for this song has been a balm during a very challenging time. The lyrics are a reminder of who God has shown Himself to be in my life.

Chorus:
Way maker
Miracle worker
Promise keeper
Light in the darkness
My God
That is who you are

After the loss of a dear loved one, I’ve found myself with an increasing sense of overwhelm. An outward expression of constant emotional wavering is a vast disconnect from the usual stoic smiling face that people around me have come to know. But my feelings of distress need to be released. And the most significant time of relent from the sting of my emotions has been in the freedom of worship. By completely disconnecting my thoughts from the ails of this world and dialing in to my personal, intimate and unabashed praise, the One who created me hears my voice when I cry out to Him. Even in my moments of weakness, He’s never abandoned me.

“God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection.” Psalm 145:13

The stages of grief, even when shared, can feel like a lonely dark corner of an empty room with no windows. But when I open my heart through worship, I invite the light of Jesus in to mend my broken pieces. The relief (read: peace) that comes with connecting to Christ through worship cannot be found outside of a true relationship with Him. Jesus has been keeping up His end with His unwavering love, comfort, grace, mercy and even correction. So, it’s on me to walk in the light of salvation and not allow our relationship to be one-sided.

In devotion to my connection with Christ, I’ve realigned my focus to what God has purposed for me. I’ve gotten back into the practice of reading my Bible daily. I’m committed to completing the Daniel Fast with Kingsway. I’ve reconnected with friends and family to help put my faith into action. And I’m giving Jesus all of my cares—grief, worry, anxiety, fear—because as 1 Peter 5:7 reminds us, He is always thinking about us and watching everything that concerns us.

Bridge:
Even when I don’t see it, You’re working
Even when I don’t feel it, You’re working
You never stop, You never stop working
You never stop, You never stop working

Reflection: During this time of fasting and prayer, what have you committed to do to strengthen your connections (with Jesus, the church, other believers, etc.)?

by Danielle Boardley

Danielle, along with her husband Dominic and children, moved to NJ in April 2014 and began attending Kingsway shortly thereafter. Quickly accepting the invitation to go through Growth Track, they learned more about the church, their spiritual strengths, and landed on the Worship Arts team. Danielle values spending quality time with her family and finding ways to express herself creatively. Joining the Kingsway blog team was yet another exciting opportunity to serve through creative expression. Her love of writing began in her youth when she was introduced to the works of Maya Angelou. Inspired by her prose, Danielle published a book of poetry in 2007.