What is Your Greatest Question?

I am of the belief that we all start out with a base level of approach to God, and that approach starts inside a fundamental framework, and that framework is built on a fundamental series of questions. It’s almost as if we come out of the womb asking questions. Our questions act as darts into an unknown world - echolocators - to try and figure out where we are, who we are, what is out there around us, what life is all about. Sometimes I think the cry of a newborn baby - fresh breath in its lungs, ears filled with sounds, eyes practically blind - is the first question, and it’s a shout: “WHERE AM I? WHO AM I? WHAT IS GOING ON?” And, that’s the question we continue to ask, our whole lives long - if not for the intervention of the Holy Spirit - to draw us to the Father by getting us to ask a different question, “Who are YOU? What are YOU doing?”

My perspective is hardwired into my physiology. Of course, my own perspective is what is most real to me. I see through my own eyes. I hear through my own ears. I think through my own mind. I can’t switch someone else’s eyes, ears, or brain with my own. In other words, we are born, even physically, selfish. We are born asking questions that put us at the center, because we are the physical center of our own worlds. We can only see things the way that we see them. So, our fundamental question is one that revolves around us: “Where am I? Who am I? What is happening to me?” The power to shift the question is found when we finally see something outside of ourselves; when we truly see and encounter a God - great in glory, awe and wonder - who - by the power of the Holy Spirit -  completely eclipses our inflated view of ourselves and our many lesser questions… “Who am I?” finally shifts to “Who are You?”

This is what I find significant about Leah’s story. Leah’s first questions to the Lord sound a lot like, “Do you see me? Do you know me? Who am I?” When Leah was rejected by Jacob, she named her first son Reuben, which translates, “‘Because the Lord has looked upon my affliction; for now my husband will love me,’” (Genesis 29:32, ESV).  I find it interesting that Leah’s first question was, “Why doesn’t my husband love me?” She can confess that God has seen her, but somehow, all she can see is her lack of love. Her second son, she names Simeon, which translates, “‘Because the Lord has heard that I am hated, He has given me this son also,’” (Gen. 29:33). Her second question is, “Why am I hated?” She can confess that God has heard her, but all she can focus on is how much she is hated.  Her third son, she names Levi, which translates, “‘Now this time, my husband will be attached to me, because I have borne him three sons,’” (Gen. 29:34). Her third question is, “Why am I detached from my husband?” Meanwhile, the Lord has proven his attachment, his faithfulness, to Leah, in giving her three sons.

Finally, when Leah has her fourth son, Judah, it seems as if something changes, and she begins to see something different, so she begins to ask a different question. Genesis tells us that Judah’s name means, “‘This time I will praise the LORD,’” (29:35). Finally, Leah’s question is, “Who are You, LORD?” Here, Leah finally sees the LORD. When we see the LORD rightly, we give Him the right kind of praise. When we see the LORD rightly, our question becomes, “How do I keep seeing You?” Then, it develops even more, even more past ourselves, “How do I love You? How do I serve You? How do I praise You like You desire?”

Sometimes, our brokenness and pain, our shame and rejection, can be used by God - superintended as a tool - to get our eyes off of ourselves and onto the Lord, and to change our question from, “Who am I?” to “Who are You?” I wonder what happened between Leah’s third and fourth sons, that she bore from Jacob. Did she have a revelation moment? Could it have been that her pain and selfish desires to be loved and accepted were eclipsed by the glory of the Lord? I believe the Holy Spirit was working in Leah’s heart, throughout her pain-filled life, to reveal the Father to her. Maybe, between children 3 and 4, she had her “Damascus road experience” like Paul? The Holy Spirit has been doing the same job, since the beginning of human history: helping us see the Lord rightly. 

Like Pastor Andy said, at the end of Leah’s life - although she never knew this, because she died before Jacob - she was buried with Jacob’s family, and Rachel was buried on the side of the road, left behind in Jacob’s travels. She would never know, this side of Heaven, that her family line would be the same family line that Jesus was born from. But maybe, just maybe, she didn’t even need to know those things. Maybe, to her, it was finally enough, to see Jesus, and to ask a different question. Maybe even those things were eclipsed. In the same manner, maybe we will never know - this side of Heaven - the fruit and the reality of all our pain and suffering. But maybe, just maybe, it won’t even matter. Because maybe, like Leah, it will be enough, just to see Jesus, and to ask a different question. And that particular question, we will be asking all eternity long…

“Day and night they never stop saying: ‘Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty,’ who was, and is, and is to come.’” Revelation 4:8

by Kaitlyn Faraghan
Kaitlyn leads worship at our Cherry Hill location. She is passionate about writing and recording music, and has been a part of numerous recording projects; she has released one album and is now working on her second album! In her spare time, you will find her scouting out the best coffee and donuts in South Jersey and the Greater Philadelphia area.


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