Oh, Lone Ranger

You ever sit in church on a Sunday morning (or in my case, at home tuned in virtually) and wonder if God parted the skies and beams of radiant sunlight are shining directly towards you, as if to say, “this message is for you [enter your name here].” Well that’s what it felt like for me this past Sunday. Oh, lone ranger….

I am your standard introvert who likes my “me time” and feels like I’ve run a marathon after I’ve interacted with lots of people. And the residuals of quarantine and limited to non-existent face-to-face interaction has put my introversion on a whole new level. I’ve never really felt alone because I know I’m surrounded by an abundance of love and loving people. But I do, at times, feel lonely.

I also consider myself a people person. When I do muster the energy to engage, I’m all in. I’m listening, I’m supporting, I’m exhorting, and when the need arises, I’m praying. (Can you guess my spiritual gifts?!) And I love when I have ability to do so freely. Interpersonal relationships can develop such a beautiful spiritual connectedness. But what I’ve come to realize is that I do a pretty decent job of lending my hands, ear, and shoulder. I also do a pretty good [read: excellent] job at keeping all of me (my wins, losses, needs, desired prayers) to myself. I know the worth of prayer and will fall to my knees in an instant, but I tend to shy away from extending myself through vulnerability, which prevents intercessors from praying with specific, direct requests on my behalf before God.

Sunday’s message reminded me that as a lone ranger I am out of the way of the sharpening that creates pressure, refinement and a renewed vessel. How can I help sharpen those who desire spiritual connection if I have a dull edge? By limiting the pressure and vulnerability, I am also limiting my testimony, my example, my light. I can’t let the comfort of being content with my “me time” disengage me from God’s intent for His lovingkindness to be mirrored through relationships built with the people He has placed in my life.

It took me a bit longer than normal to get my thoughts together for this post. I was struggling with going beyond the surface and exposing the lonely vessel that God created for Kingdom connection. The closer I grow to brothers and sisters in Christ, the more we glorify God and the Kingdom together.

Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

by Danielle Boardley
Danielle, along with her husband Dominic and children, moved to NJ in April 2014 and began attending Kingsway shortly thereafter. Quickly accepting the invitation to go through Growth Track, they learned more about the church, their spiritual strengths, and landed on the Worship Arts team. Danielle values spending quality time with her family and finding ways to express herself creatively. Joining the Kingsway blog team was yet another exciting opportunity to serve through creative expression. Her love of writing began in her youth when she was introduced to the works of Maya Angelou. Inspired by her prose, Danielle published a book of poetry in 2007.

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