Without Wavering

I am going to be honest with you guys. I have been in a really tough season. I have been battling a peculiar health issue that seems to baffle every doctor I have seen. It’s been six months of tests, scans, doctors visits, medications, supplements, tinctures and tonics. There have been days where my faith is completely shattered. Other days I am confident in Him who has saved me time and time again.

Today was not one of those days. It was hard, and painful and confusing. Boy did I need to hear last Sunday's message.  In Sunday’s message Pastor Bryon read one of my favorite verses. You know, one of the verses that you forget about, and then when someone reads it, it just hits you all over again. Well Hebrews 10:23 is one of them for me. I love the New Living Translation's version of it: “Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise."

Guys...I  waver. Man do I waver! I have journals filled with promises but over these last six months I have had to work harder than ever to hold on to them. Every morning I have to remind myself of who God is, what He has done for me and that He is faithful. I have never had to hold on so tightly in my life.

Yet still, there are days when I just can’t pump myself up anymore. I’m in pain, I'm mad and I feel like I am drowning in confusion. It's those days that I am so glad I have a community of women surrounding me that can lift me out of the pit I am wallowing in, pray when I can’t and constantly point me back to Jesus. Over and over again (sometimes several times a day). These relationships that I made in Kingsway Life Groups have been so vital in my walk with the Lord. Especially in the valleys.

Pastor Bryon went on to read the next verses in Hebrews 10 which are, “... Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another...”

Through this season, I am so thankful for the women in my life, who motivate and encourage me to keep holding on, to keep loving others through it, and to remember...He is faithful...He keeps his promises and He loves me.

So if you haven’t, can I encourage you to get in a group? Because one day you will need to lean on others. One day you will need that encouragement...and maybe today, someone might be needing to lean on you.  

by Lisa Duvall
Lisa has been attending Kingsway and serving on the prayer team since she moved to South Jersey in 2015. She is a freelance writer and former television reporter who now gets to spend her days at home with her two small children. Lisa is also passionate about the pro-life movement, volunteering with a local group called the Helpers of God's Precious Infants NJ, and freelances for pro-life online sites.